The Parade-less Pride

This past weekend was Pride Weekend in Chicago.

I was really looking forward to the weekend’s festivities.  In addition to the parade itself on Sunday, there was the CGMC concert on Saturday night, and my friend Tracy in Sweeney Todd at Loyola University on Friday night.  It was definitely looking to be an action-packed week and I was ready for it.

The show on Friday was wonderful.  Tracy was awesome and I hung out with her afterward and met some of the cast.  Later I joined the Feast of Fools boys at Big Chicks and we did a bar crawl through Uptown, Andersonville and Edgewater that ended with me getting home late and a bit drunk, but still happy that I had a great time.

Saturday was recovery day (thanks to Friday!) but I was still able to get out and do a little shopping.  Then of course, Saturday night was the CGMC show, which was absolutely wonderful.  The chorus changed its Pride concert venue from the Athenaeum Theatre to Lakeview Presbyterian Church for this show, and it allowed the chorus to perform “Naked” – without any audio enhancement.  The result was a rich, wonderful show that the audience (and chorus) enjoyed immensely.  I wished I could be up there singing with them.

I joined a group of the chorus members out for a drink or two after the show and we were all psyched for the Pride Parade.  I was planning on joining them as we marched our annual march from Belmont Street to Diversey Parkway.  The Chorus was teaming up with the Illinois Lottery this year and we were planning on bringing 100 people to not only show our support but to sing out, loud and proud.  It was to be very exciting.

But for me, this was not to be.

When I awoke on Sunday morning, I felt my chest burning and my lungs heavy.  It was difficult to breathe.  I started coughing continuously. And the more I did to try to get ready, the worse it got.  I knew this feeling, and I knew it well.  I was having an asthma attack.

Foolishly, I thought maybe I was just hungry, so I started making breakfast.  I drank some orange juice and things seemed to settle a bit, but as I kept working and preparing my food, it got worse again.  I had another attack.

Defeated, I grabbed my Albuterol inhaler and took a couple of puffs.  The attack subsided but my heart was racing.  I knew this was a bad sign.  I ate my breakfast and tried to calm myself down, but it was too little, too late.  I had another attack.  So I puffed again and sat down.

By now I was running late for the parade, but I also knew there was no way I could do it in my current condition.  I sent messages to our chorus General Manager and another fellow member, letting them know I couldn’t make it, and got back into bed.  I slept for about four hours.

This was the first time since I attended my first Pride parade in about 1993 that I didn’t attend Chicago’s Pride parade.  If I had a different excuse I suppose I would feel better about it, but I guess my health is as good an excuse as any.  One thing  I knew for sure- my asthma is no longer just something I “might” have to worry about in the future.  It’s something I definitely need to worry about — NOW.

My mom had asthma throughout most of her life but let it go untreated and unchecked until it was almost too late.  Granted, she smoked throughout most of her life, too– but chances are she would be in the same boat she’s in today — with COPD/Emphysema— whether she smoked or not, simply because she let her asthma go for so long.  I don’t want to end up like that, and I know she doesn’t want me to end up that way, either.  So I’m doing something about it today.  I’m calling my doctor and we’re going to get me scheduled for a pulmonary exam.  I can’t deny the obvious any longer.  Asthma is a hereditary disease.  I have it.  I have to live with it.

I just want to live with it — and not die because of it!

So my pride weekend was a bit marred; but it wasn’t without its good moments.  And if I had to take something away from the weekend that was positive, it’s that I learned something important about myself and I will do something about it.  I guess that’s part of taking pride in living your best life.

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7 thoughts on “The Parade-less Pride

  1. Oh no! I’m sorry about your attack, but at least it is shining some light on your condition, and you can take care of it.

    I am unsure if I am going to go to the parade this year; I don’t deal well with heat, and it has only seemed to have gotten worse over the past few months. I literally feel like I am going to pass out when I am in the heat too long; and a 3 hour a parade is not going to work for that. Who knows what will happen, I guess?!

    Hope you are feeling better buddy! 😉

  2. Oh no! I’m sorry about your attack, but at least it is shining some light on your condition, and you can take care of it.

    I am unsure if I am going to go to the parade this year; I don’t deal well with heat, and it has only seemed to have gotten worse over the past few months. I literally feel like I am going to pass out when I am in the heat too long; and a 3 hour a parade is not going to work for that. Who knows what will happen, I guess?!

    Hope you are feeling better buddy! 😉

  3. asthma is no fun, but usually it’s controllable. they keep coming out with better meds–mine’s thankfully been under control for about 2 years now. having to take medication every day can be a bit of a hassle, but the alternative trip to the ER is not something i plan to ever do again. hope the doctor can get you on the right treatments–it’s much easier to sing when you can breathe!

  4. asthma is no fun, but usually it’s controllable. they keep coming out with better meds–mine’s thankfully been under control for about 2 years now. having to take medication every day can be a bit of a hassle, but the alternative trip to the ER is not something i plan to ever do again. hope the doctor can get you on the right treatments–it’s much easier to sing when you can breathe!

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