Hangin' In

Hang in there babyYou remember those posters from the 70s… the ones with the kitten hanging from a tree branch saying “Hang in there baby!” Whether they were some sort of 70s pep talk or just a fad, it seemed everyone had one.

So did I. It didn’t look anything like the image to the left, of course, but it was this monstrous door-sized poster of a kitty that hung on my bedroom door. I think it said “Hang in there baby… Friday’s coming!” if I’m not mistaken. Even at the ripe young age of 9 or 10 I was living for Fridays.

So I’m hanging in there. My depression that I wrote of earlier has subsided for the most part. I’ve just been dealing with so much lately — death, money, school, health, and the usual day-t0-day rituals of life. Things compound and sometimes it feels like there’s no way out. Oddly enough, work is about the only thing in my life lately that is going very well. Everything else has gone to shit in some way, shape or form.

Thankfully I’ve found a way out of most of my problems. Things will get better. I am feeling much more optimistic about that. I just need to “hang in there” a little while longer.

Thank you for all of your comments and your concern. It means a lot to me.


I think I suffer from a mild form of depression.

I get up, I go to work, I come home from work, I sit at my computer, I maybe watch some TV, and I go to bed.  Day in and day out, it’s the same old thing.  Over and over again.  Never-ending.

Once in a great while I’ll go out with friends or do something fun like take a trip, go camping, or something like that– but other times I’m more content to just stay at home, lock the door, and let life pass me by.

This weekend I got home from work on Friday night and didn’t leave my apartment once — except for a 2-minute walk downstairs to check my mail from Saturday (nothing).  It was a gorgeous, sunny, cool, low-humidity weekend, and all I could do was sit and vegetate.

I know everyone has low points.  And I know some have more than others.  But this is getting ridiculous.  I wanted to get up… I wanted to ride my bike, go to the beach, do something– anything to get out of the house, but no sooner did the thought cross my mind that another part of my brain squashed it.  And so there I sat.

What the hell is wrong with me?

I’m really starting to get concerned.

YouTube Homophobia

I love YouTube.  It’s the easiest way to waste a few precious hours of each day– aside from hanging out on various “Men for Men” or personal ad websites. 

But over the course of the last year or so of perusing YouTube’s video clips, I have seen homophobia displayed in the comments area.  At first I just brushed it off as the typical ignorance of small-minded individuals, but lately I’ve noticed a marked increased in this type of behavior, and now it’s getting a bit out of hand.  Take, for example, this clip– titled “Homer Goes Gay” from “The Simpsons.” 

Some of the comments that follow this clip include the following:

”That was the best kiss I’ve had tonight!” (Or was it?)
”Homer what are you thinking?”

*gasp* my spices!
hilariousness (^_^) i love it!

I remember I shouted out a really loud “No way!” when that dude kissed Homer. This is a great episode, I like the Pet Shop Boys’ song they use.

Grady: He’s gay, He’s gay, gay, gay, bye! Gay, gay, gay for pay.
Homer: Tennese Williams? But how did he survive in the world of theater?
Grady: Homer, puh-lese! Anyone who’s acted in, produced or even seen a play is gay.
ROFL! LOL! This is awsome!

But then they are followed by comments such as these:

your fuckin sick u bastard

If a guy kissed me like that…i would knock the shit out of him. But, this is a funny episode, lol. Good old simpsons

Yuck! He just kissed Homer >.<

seein two guys kiss meh w/e works for them but a guy trying on me HELL NO sorry but I’m straight I dont mind gays its just that they shouldnt try to be gay towards me if they just hang around they can act gay all they want

It’s yuck always to see a man kiss a man.

Homophobic? Sorry but i don’t support gays i got a girl so that’s why.

being gay is a choice and noone has the power to say its right or wrong. it would be hard being gay and being constantly judged for your sexuality and its not fair 

shut the fuck up. God says it’s bad so it’s FUCKING BAD. 

i hate that gay guy that kisses Homer
Homer is gay in 2 episodes 

i never seen this episode either b4,>< i just got sick from when that fag kisse homer, GROSSE!!. I wanna see the full episode. i love the simpsons 😀

yyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy idiots iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii hate gggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg

it’s funny but i don’t like gays… 

hehe typical simpsons ^^ but I don’t like gays too

There are a TON of comments on this video, and quite a few of them support– and some even defend– the gay content of the video.  But these neanderthal views, if they do nothing else, stand as just another reminder that there are still a good number of people out there with an awful lot of hate in their heads. 

I said a prayer today

God and I haven’t had the greatest of relationships.  But today I bent his ear for a few minutes.

This is what I said:

“God, I know you and I haven’t had much to do with each other lately.

I don’t ask for much, and don’t expect anything in return.

But this time around, I need your help.

Actually, my family needs your help.

Please help my sister and her husband to have a baby.

They have been trying so hard for so long, and they would be such wonderful parents.

They got good news today from a home pregnancy test, but they are waiting for the results from the doctor to confirm that.

She would be such a great mom.  And he would be such a wonderful dad.  Not to mention a great set of grandparents and uncles. The baby would be so loved and would be raised to be a bright and good person.

So please, God, do our family this one small favor.

Give my sister and her husband the baby they want so badly.


Whatever your convictions or beliefs…

if you could say a little prayer, or cross your fingers, or whatever you desire for my sister and her husband, I would greatly appreciate it.  And so would they.

How To Be An Asshole

There are scores of self-help books out there about how to be a better person. Each one has its own way of teaching the ways and means of self-improvement, and each has some really wonderful lessons to apply to one’s life.

But there is an untapped market out there– one that many people learn through sheer upbringing, and some learn through clear-cut instruction by others who have learned the way. It helps some people get to the top. It helps others remain out of the limelight. But one thing is for certain about all of these people:

They have all somehow learned to be enormous assholes.

Now, speaking as one of the good guys (I hope), I can honestly say that I don’t know how these people learned their trades. But being one of the good guys, I can certainly guess. And usually, the guesses of a good guy (or gal) are pretty much dead-on.

So, here is my theory on how people can be the gaping asshole they’ve always wanted to be– in ten easy steps:

1. Don’t listen to anyone. Ignore people who try to tell you what is right and/or good. Pretend that you– and only you– can make the right decision about anything.

2. Ignore your critics. You don’t necessarily have to plug your ears and shout, “La! La! La!” to drown them out… but a good asshole learns how to do it inside their head so nobody can see. It also doesn’t hurt to tell a critic that they are sinners, or damned to hell, or– if you’re from the USA– un-American for criticizing your views. That’ll make ’em learn.

3. Continually spout the same rhetoric over and over again. Surely if you believe something so much as to repeat it over and over and OVER again, it HAS to be true. And surely SOMEONE will start to believe it… eventually.

4. Take away everyone else’s toys. Be greedy!  The more you have, the more important you are. And those who don’t have what you have are obviously WRONG and BAD.

5. Believe that your way is the only way. Write your own laws.  And woe be unto those who say you can’t do so.  Because after all, if you can’t be God, you can at least pretend to be God-LIKE.

6. Make things up.  They might just make you sound like you’re actually smart.  And don’t worry if people laugh. They’re not laughing at YOU– they’re laughing at THEMSELVES for being so stupid as to not have thought of them already!

7. Intimidate. It’s the only way to succeed.

8. Frighten. It’s the only way to get the cowards to bow down to you.

9. Terrorize. It’s the only way to gain control of your enemies.

10. Run for President. (This one only works if your name is George W. Bush.)