Oh look! A robin!

There’s this guy in my circle of friends. I’ll just call him Scatterbrain for now, because I don’t want to necessarily mention him by name. But those who read this blog that know him will know exactly who I mean.

Scatterbrain has the tendency to change topics and subjects faster than many of us can comprehend. A typical paragraph of dialogue with him would go something like this:

“Sweetie are you going to so-and-so’s party tomorrow night? Oh! I met this boy last week and he was SO cute. I LOVE HIM! I wonder what I’ll wear tomorrow? Did you hear that new song by Kelly Clarkson? Oh look! A robin!”

I love Scatterbrain, and I mean him no harm by this post. We joke about his being scatterbrained, and the term “Oh look! A robin!” is his calling card because we love him. We tease because we love. That’s how it works.

At any rate, I can relate to Scatterbrain because I, too, feel that way quite often. Although I’m not nearly as vocal about it.

While sitting at my desk, whether here at home or at work- it will take every ounce of energy in my body to keep from flipping from one project to another: flip to the internet to check Email; flip to the Tribune to check the headlines, and back to my original project; and all over again, back and forth and round and round.

When trying to start a project at home, I frequently get sidetracked by the most minor of distractions– the cats, the phone, a piece of paper on the floor, a magazine, or any other object on my cluttered desk.

It is in realizing this pattern in myself that I know I must have some form of Attention Defecit Disorder. If I could just stay focused on one thing, there is no telling how many things I could accomplish. Instead, I start a zillion different things and some things never get done.

You’d be amazed at how many blog posts I have started and then abandoned because I got distracted by something else, and instead of saving them for later, just shut down the computer because I forgot I started them.

I know I’m not crazy. And I know this is common behavior for many people. I just don’t like it in myself, and I need to do something about it. It’s something that’s been bothering me for some time now.

I attribute a lot of other things in my life to this problem as well– my inability to control my eating, my lack of interest in starting a weight-loss program, my bad record with money, for instance.

I also believe that many problems I have at work are related. I’ve been talked to numerous times because of my lack of concentration– everything from surfing the internet to even falling asleep. It’s bad. It needs to stop.

Are there any of you out there who have been diagnosed with Attention Defecit Disorder later in life? What were some of your symptoms? What are you doing about it? What should I do about it? Lord knows I don’t want another pill to take every day– but if I have to, I will.

I’m a little afraid of this… but at least I’m able to recognize that there is a problem. The sooner I do something about it, the better off I will be.

Ugh. Wish me luck.