I can not sleep.
I’ve been trying to sleep for the last 3 1/2 hours. I’ve tried soothing sounds on my clock radio, drops of lavender oil on my pillow, different positions, different configurations, and now I’m up blogging because…
I just can not sleep.
So, lucky readers, you get to read my ramblings while I attempt to get tired.
Not that it does any good anyway, since I have to be up in 1 1/2 hours.
So usually when one has insomnia, it’s caused by either stress, anxiety, or worry. Among other things.
What’s happened in the last few days that has caused me stress?
I visited my parents on Saturday. And while that would usually cause me some sort of stress, it wasn’t so bad this time. It was actually a rather nice visit. What’s stressful is that they can’t decide whether to sell their house or stay there, and I think they’d be crazy to stay there. Long story short, they just can’t take care of the house, the property and themselves. They need something smaller. But complacency is always easier, and they would rather stay where they are than bother with a move. Not that I blame them, but it is for the best. So yes, that would be a cause of stress. And worry.
I have to go in to work 1 1/2 hours early today. That’s stressing me out right now, considering I haven’t slept yet.
My cats are unusually antsy tonight. They’ve been fighting with each other, which is strange because they usually get along very well. That’s stressing me out. And causing me anxiety. And keeping me further awake.
I get my new computer today. That is, if I get home in time for the UPS delivery. So thus, I will be leaving early from work (since I am going in early) so I can meet the UPS delivery person in time. It’d be much easier if I could just stay home, but I can’t (see above about going in 1 1/2 hours early – there is a reason.) So I’m stressed about that.
OK and there was this guy that I met last week while out at the bars that I thought was really cute. We flirted most of the night and (I thought) hit it off well. We exchanged numbers at the end of the night. I was supposed to meet him and some chorus friends out on Wednesday but couldn’t make it because I had to work late. I never heard from him, but knew I’d see him again tonight. Well tonight, he was out again, but was hanging all over one of my chorus friends. In fact, they were wearing these ridiculous T-shirts. His said “I’m J….’s Daddy” and the other guy’s said “I’m C….’s Bitch” How charming. Men suck.
So all these petty, stupid little things add up to more and more stress in my life. Are they enough to keep me awake at night? No. I am really not sure what the true cause is, but since I’m awake, and can’t get my mind to relax, I might as well say what’s on it. So there, that’s what’s on it right now.
Back to trying to get some sleep.